LIFE JOURNAL

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

people change..

there is some kind of mysterious sense in this, and as the fact says that no one would change after they hit 21, this sounds kinda old already.

are people really changing?

maybe not.. maybe it's just their behavior toward you that changes. or is it?
just how do you feel when you're asked to think about some friends of old days and you think of someone, but they never did the same?
maybe they're INDEED your friends, however you're not theirs.
or with someone you love, as you think you're trusting each other, and the matter of fact, you're the only one who believes in that and do the silly thing so-called 'trusting'?

all the stupid stuffs..

it's a matter of time before you're forgotten, even about how you ever existed in this world.
they will all like, "garry.. ahh garry.. ahh really. do i know him?"

somewhat, after i've thought everything through, i just knew everything they said was of a lie.

maybe i just think too much.. maybe..

and now i can't believe i start talking about this again.
i thought i would just act it up like how they did.
but i can't. i just can't.

4:34 AM

"nothing good happens after 2 a.m. when it hits 2 a.m., just go to sleep."
-how i met your mother.

4:27 AM

are we not trusting each other anymore?

ahh.. seems like it.

3:55 AM

and now i realize

lies.. they're all lies.

3:50 AM

Monday, July 11, 2011

"I hated myself because I had no abilities.

And I couldn't stop myself from admiring those who had them.

Mommy..

Does being a Level Zero mean that you're defective?"

Saten Ruiko - Toaru Kagaku no Railgun

12:43 AM

Monday, June 27, 2011

i don't know how..

how to show you my attention..

i've been thinking, and i realize that i never did anything good for you.

i couldn't give you promises like the other men would.

i couldn't do things to please you.

perhaps i'm like taking you for granted.

i'm the only one who's pleased.

i'm sorry..

but it's not like i don't care.

really..

i've been thinking of how to show you that i really care.

but nothing comes in mind.

and now i'm scared of that day.. the day where your heart will rapidly change, because your doubt rises, as my love seems covered by my own uselessness.

i'm sorry. i'm a good-for-nothing.

but believe me. my love to you never will change.

3:50 PM

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Believe in God and yourself. Never depends on anybody.

Why? Because in the time of darkness, even your shadow will leave you.

1:20 AM