not knowing where to go or who to find, he ended up writing this journal.
he has the life of an ordinary person, yet the way of thinking of a melancholia.
he just doesn't know how to find that four-letter thing.
P. S. the navigator buttons are the colored bookmarks.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
7:08 AM
fuck fuck fuck fuck..it happened.. it really happened..
what am i to do now?
fuck fuck fuck fuck
6:46 AM
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
people change..
there is some kind of mysterious sense in this, and as the fact says that no one would change after they hit 21, this sounds kinda old already.
are people really changing?
maybe not.. maybe it's just their behavior toward you that changes. or is it?
just how do you feel when you're asked to think about some friends of old days and you think of someone, but they never did the same?
maybe they're INDEED your friends, however you're not theirs.
or with someone you love, as you think you're trusting each other, and the matter of fact, you're the only one who believes in that and do the silly thing so-called 'trusting'?
all the stupid stuffs..
it's a matter of time before you're forgotten, even about how you ever existed in this world.
they will all like, "garry.. ahh garry.. ahh really. do i know him?"
somewhat, after i've thought everything through, i just knew everything they said was of a lie.
maybe i just think too much.. maybe..
and now i can't believe i start talking about this again.
i thought i would just act it up like how they did.
but i can't. i just can't.
4:34 AM
"nothing good happens after 2 a.m. when it hits 2 a.m., just go to sleep."
-how i met your mother.
4:27 AM
are we not trusting each other anymore?
ahh.. seems like it.
3:55 AM
and now i realize
lies.. they're all lies.
3:50 AM
Monday, July 11, 2011
"I hated myself because I had no abilities. And I couldn't stop myself from admiring those who had them.
Mommy..
Does being a Level Zero mean that you're defective?"
Saten Ruiko - Toaru Kagaku no Railgun
12:43 AM
