not knowing where to go or who to find, he ended up writing this journal.
he has the life of an ordinary person, yet the way of thinking of a melancholia.
he just doesn't know how to find that four-letter thing.
P. S. the navigator buttons are the colored bookmarks.
Friday, December 25, 2009
I'm alone on this Christmas day, but who says it's bad?
what I did all day was thinking, day dreaming, and everything done with mind..
and at night, as my PC has been fixed, I tried to search back everything it had ever saved since I've never seen what's inside for really really long time.
and because of this circumstance, I found a really cool stuff, a file with Rich Text Format.
I was searching some pictures from folder which I used to save pictures in.
I opened "my computer" icon on the desktop, I saw one of the hard disk drive named "Data (D:)" and I double clicked it.
there was a folder named "my doc", where I saved all my files there.
I slowly pointed my pointer to the folder and I clicked on it.
I was trying to double click it, but did it too slow that I happened to rename the folder.
that was hard since my last contact with the PC. lol. :)
I tried it one more time, and I succeeded.
I needed a second to realize that I'm not used to see the scene of the PC anymore.
then, I moved my pointer to "my picture" folder before I realized that I actually got lots of text files with Ms. Word and Rich Text Format in "my doc" folder.
I then observed each of the files.
I got "another blog" with Rich Text Format, "Ant" with Ms. Word Format, "Graphic1" with CorelDraw Graphic Format, and more.
Most of them were my assignments.
and then I laughed when I saw some files named "kopekan", "kopekan 2", "kopekan 3" and so on. lol.
that's my dirty little secret..
and I couldn't believe that I saved it!
really unbelievable.
I couldn't even stop laughing. :D
I continued my work, and I froze when I found this file.
with "Microsoft Word Document" Format, size "47 KB", it was named by me as "love letter".
If I'm not mistaken, this is what I wrote to her, Vivi Rihanty.
a letter which I gave her on 14th February 2009, a day I could never forget.
if I'm not mistaken...
I double clicked on it, and here is what is written there.
Dear Vivi,
As you open and read this letter, it means that you'll see me being serious again. I know I do lots of jokes, but what I'll tell you here are all serious. Please don't laugh. Yeah, I know, I'm not really expert in writing love letter. =)
Well, I won't talk much here. One thing for sure which you should know, and I'm sure that you've known it too, is that I LOVE YOU. For real, I truly love you. This is me, the real me. I just can't tell you how much I care about you.
So..
I write this poem, presented to a girl who knows how to be loved and cared.
"Do you remember that day?
The day when we first met
When there's no word to say
And silence hadn't passed just yet
When I could have blinded my eyes
Which might see you still
When I could then realize
They could know your will
When I could have tied my tongue
Which should say your beauty
When I could have just sung
About them in every melody
When I could have slammed my ears
Which would hear that voice
When I could just feel fear
To lose it in the crowd's noise
Ah, there you are
You've been so pretty
As I traveled back that far
I now know I'm that lucky
And if I just love you
With other things I never mind
I've committed to ask you
Would you be my valentine?"
Whatever your answer is, I'll accept it. Whatever your answer is, I'll always still be yours.
With love,
Garry
P.S. This is my first love letter and I dedicate it to someone who deserves it.
There was time when my tears forced to flow, but I soon held it inside.
these tears wanted to flow not because of the broken heart I once felt, but because of my memories about things I once had.
I miss that time, the time when I spent my precious time thinking about what to write.
I looked for words which I thought might impress her and spent almost 2 hours to write this simple love letter.
I was such a fool, wasn't I?
Yeah, and I feel funny about the love letter.
most of the words are ridiculous!
lol. :D
well, if you think I'm sad, I'm not sad.
perhaps I WAS sad.
but I'm not.
believe me.
Besides, I love someone else now, someone who actually deserves it.
So, why do I have to feel sad about it?
I even smiled when I read over it.
I guess words won't change people's mind, will it?
attitude will.
and what I'm working on is to impress my beloved one with my attitude, not with those silly words anymore.
Problems teach lessons, don't they?
By the way, isn't that "always still be yours" word kinda exaggerating? :PLabels: things
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