LIFE JOURNAL
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not knowing where to go or who to find, he ended up writing this journal.
he has the life of an ordinary person, yet the way of thinking of a melancholia.
he just doesn't know how to find that four-letter thing.
P. S. the navigator buttons are the colored bookmarks.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
I started this post and I really didn't know how to write. I've just noticed something so exciting that I can't stop shaking! whoa..
okay, calm down Garry. now..
I don't know what to say, this is totally awesome! you see, Dashboard Confessional is going to show their performance here! Indonesia! This is just too great to happen! whoa.. I wish I could go to Jakarta.. I wanna see them.
Arghh! Why Jakarta?
Well, Dashboard Confessional is my favorite band and I really love their songs! and now they're holding this event in Indonesia, 29 May 2010, at 7:00 PM! It's like 'now or never' you know. it's like 'no way they will come here again next time'. urghh.. I really wish I could be there. shit!
I first noticed this event from their facebook account. click here do you know what really shocked me? it's a free show! free! and I'm not attending! it's really a pain in the ass!
they are coming to Indonesia.. they are coming to Indonesia.. they are coming to Indonesia!!
it's like I'm going to cry now! arghh!
this is one the their songs I'm loving right now since it really suits me.. This is when they performed on the MTV 2 Unplugged. Dashboard Confessional - The Sharp Hint of New Tears
On the way home, this car hears my confessions. I think tonight I'll take the long way. In this weather, the wind outside is biting. It's left me feeling tired and exposed. You've been asking me to bleed. It seems these kinds of questions, they come too easy to you now. And your lack of shame comes naturally. I should not be surprised. I should have seen it sooner.
Expect me to apologize for things that you've done wrong. But you're inciting others. You're owning up to nothing and I wish that I was gone, 'cause you're not going anywhere.
And this damp air it's fighting my defroster. My sighs they ring victorious and fog this tinted glass. And it's clouded and so is my head. The hint of these new tears are sharp I try to choke them back. But it's useless. I am useless against them. They are beating me with ease.
On the way home this car hears my confessions. I think tonight I'll take the long way.
Expect me to apologize for things that you've done wrong. While you're inciting others. You're owning up to nothing and I wish that I was gone, 'Cause you're not going anywhere.
On the way home this car hears my confessions. I think tonight I'll take the long way.
Almost heaven, West Virginia Blue Ridge Mountains Shenandoah River - Life is old there Older than the trees Younger than the mountains Blowin’ like a breeze
Country Roads, take me home To the place I belong West Virginia, mountain mamma Take me home, country roads
All my memories gathered ‘round her Miner’s lady, stranger to blue water Dark and dusty, painted on the sky Misty taste of moonshine Teardrops in my eye
Country Roads, take me home To the place I belong West Virginia, mountain mamma Take me home, country roads
I hear her voice In the mornin’ hour she calls me The radio reminds me of my home far away And drivin’ down the road I get a feelin’ That I should have been home yesterday, yesterday
Country Roads, take me home To the place I belong West Virginia, mountain mamma Take me home, country roads
Country Roads, take me home To the place I belong West Virginia, mountain mamma Take me home, country roads Take me home, down country roads Take me home, down country roads
Hakuna Matata Hakuna Matata Hakuna Matata Hakuna Matata Hakuna Matata Hakuna Matata oooooohhhhh Hakuna Matata Hakuna Matata When I was a cool young one (when he was a cool young one) i worked in the colony payin my dues accepting without question the prevailing views That a young man's life was one long grind diggin holes standing guard till it crossed my mind
i was wrong, all along all that i needed, was to have heeded
hakuna matata what a wonderful phrase hakuna matata ain't no passing craze
it means no worries for the rest of your days it's our problem free philosophy hakuna matata
when i was a shallow youth (when he was a shallow youth) a fool for perfection i was never that good i was a pawn in the game i saw no trees for the wood my future stretched behind me i was over the hill i put my best foot forward while the other one stood still
take my word i have heard all that i needed is to have heeded
hakuna matata what a wonderful phrase, yeah hakuna matata ain't no passin craze
it means no worries for the rest of your days it's our problem free philosophy hakuna matata hakuna matata hakuna matata hakuna matata hakuna matata
hakuna matata i hoped we have conveyed don't hafta bust, get out of the sun it's much cooler in the shade some say it's just a waste of time but they don't realize that the view is nothing but a crime we're all creatures worldliwise
hakuna matata (hakuna matata) hakuna matata (hakuna matata) it means no worries (it means no worries man) its our problem free philosophy hakuna matata
hakuna matata what a wonderful phrase, yeah hakuna matata (yeah, yeah) ain't no passing craze (yeah) it means mo worries for the rest of your da-ays it's our problam free (s'our problem free) philosophy (philosophy) Hakuna matata (hakuna matata) what a wonderful phrase, yeah hakuna matata ain't no passing craze - starts fading out - (hey) it means no worries (means no worries) for the rest of your da-ays - fades out -
So she says, "Everyone's going to the party Won't you come if I come with a friend for your friend? I'd be so pleased to see you Out of the classroom, Wearing the smile that I'll bring you. I was hoping to learn a few things, like........ Do you do you like dishing the dirt On the whole class, Talking the big smack, Or playing the fool? Wearing all of the latest fashions Or bucking the new trends? Wearing your old threads Or if you like coffee in the evening. These are a few things, That I'd like to know; That I'd like to know."
So I say, "I've been scheduled to work, But I'll call in. And, my friend isn't busy, He'd be happy to join me. And maybe my friend and your friend Will hit it off? Or, maybe we will? I'm dying to know........ Do you, do you like dreaming Of things so impossible? Or only the practical, Or ever the wild? Waiting through all of your Bad, bad days; Just to end them With someone you care about? But do you like making out, And long drives and brown eyes And guys that just don't quite fit in? "Do you like them?"
Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep. This air is blessed, you share with me. This night is wild, so calm and dull. These hearts, they race from self-control. Your legs are smooth as they graze mine. We're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me, So won't you kill me, so I die happy? My heart is yours, to fill or burst, To break or bury, or wear as jewelry. Whichever you prefer.
The words are hushed, let's not get busted. Just lay entwined here, undiscovered; Safe in here from all the stupid questions. "Hey, did you get some?" Man, that is so dumb. Stay quiet, stay near, stay close, They can't hear, so we can get some.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me, So won't you kill me, so I die happy? My heart is yours, to fill or burst, To break or bury, or wear as jewelry. Whichever you prefer.
Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember. I'll always remember the sound of the stereo, The dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair, That you twirled in your fingers. And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late. And this walk that we shared together. The streets were wet and the gate was locked, So I jumped it and I let you in, And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist, And you kissed me like you meant it, And I knew that you meant it. That you meant it, that you meant it. And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it.
When I see your smile tears roll down my face. I can't replace.
And now that I'm strong I have figured out how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul, and I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one.
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven.
It's ok... It's ok... It's ok...
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing and stars are falling all for us days grow longer and nights grow shorter I can show you I'll be the one.
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever. I'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven.
Cause you're my you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart, please don't throw that away.
Cause I'm here, for you please don't walk away and please tell me you'll stay, stay..
Use me as you will pull my strings just for a thrill and I know I'll be okay though my skies are turning gray.
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all even if saving you sends me to heaven.
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all even if saving you sends me to heaven.
So, I've made up my mind I will pretend to leave this world behind And in the end, you'll know I've lied To get your attention I'm faking my own suicide
I'm faking my own suicide Because I know you love me You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide They'll hold a double funeral Because a part of you will die Along with me
I wish you thought that I was dead So rather than me, you'd be depressed instead And before arriving at my grave You'd come to the conclusion You'd loved me all your days But it's too late Too late for you to say
Because I'm faking my own suicide Because I know you love me You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide They'll hold a double funeral Because a part of you will die Along with me
I'll write you a letter that you'll keep Reminding you your love for me is more than six feet deep You say aloud that you would have been my wife Right about that time is when I come back to life And let you know I'd let you know that all along I was...
I was faking my own suicide Because I know you loved me You just never realized
I was faking my own suicide I'll walk in that room and see your eyes opened so wide Opened so wide Because you know
Because you know you will never leave my side Until the day that I die for the first time And we'll laugh, yeah we'll laugh And we will cry So overjoyed with our love that's so alive Our love is so alive
I started this post and I really didn't know how to write. I've just noticed something so exciting that I can't stop shaking! whoa..
okay, calm down Garry. now..
I don't know what to say, this is totally awesome! you see, Dashboard Confessional is going to show their performance here! Indonesia! This is just too great to happen! whoa.. I wish I could go to Jakarta.. I wanna see them.
Arghh! Why Jakarta?
Well, Dashboard Confessional is my favorite band and I really love their songs! and now they're holding this event in Indonesia, 29 May 2010, at 7:00 PM! It's like 'now or never' you know. it's like 'no way they will come here again next time'. urghh.. I really wish I could be there. shit!
I first noticed this event from their facebook account. click here do you know what really shocked me? it's a free show! free! and I'm not attending! it's really a pain in the ass!
they are coming to Indonesia.. they are coming to Indonesia.. they are coming to Indonesia!!
it's like I'm going to cry now! arghh!
this is one the their songs I'm loving right now since it really suits me.. This is when they performed on the MTV 2 Unplugged. Dashboard Confessional - The Sharp Hint of New Tears
On the way home, this car hears my confessions. I think tonight I'll take the long way. In this weather, the wind outside is biting. It's left me feeling tired and exposed. You've been asking me to bleed. It seems these kinds of questions, they come too easy to you now. And your lack of shame comes naturally. I should not be surprised. I should have seen it sooner.
Expect me to apologize for things that you've done wrong. But you're inciting others. You're owning up to nothing and I wish that I was gone, 'cause you're not going anywhere.
And this damp air it's fighting my defroster. My sighs they ring victorious and fog this tinted glass. And it's clouded and so is my head. The hint of these new tears are sharp I try to choke them back. But it's useless. I am useless against them. They are beating me with ease.
On the way home this car hears my confessions. I think tonight I'll take the long way.
Expect me to apologize for things that you've done wrong. While you're inciting others. You're owning up to nothing and I wish that I was gone, 'Cause you're not going anywhere.
On the way home this car hears my confessions. I think tonight I'll take the long way.
Almost heaven, West Virginia Blue Ridge Mountains Shenandoah River - Life is old there Older than the trees Younger than the mountains Blowin’ like a breeze
Country Roads, take me home To the place I belong West Virginia, mountain mamma Take me home, country roads
All my memories gathered ‘round her Miner’s lady, stranger to blue water Dark and dusty, painted on the sky Misty taste of moonshine Teardrops in my eye
Country Roads, take me home To the place I belong West Virginia, mountain mamma Take me home, country roads
I hear her voice In the mornin’ hour she calls me The radio reminds me of my home far away And drivin’ down the road I get a feelin’ That I should have been home yesterday, yesterday
Country Roads, take me home To the place I belong West Virginia, mountain mamma Take me home, country roads
Country Roads, take me home To the place I belong West Virginia, mountain mamma Take me home, country roads Take me home, down country roads Take me home, down country roads
Hakuna Matata Hakuna Matata Hakuna Matata Hakuna Matata Hakuna Matata Hakuna Matata oooooohhhhh Hakuna Matata Hakuna Matata When I was a cool young one (when he was a cool young one) i worked in the colony payin my dues accepting without question the prevailing views That a young man's life was one long grind diggin holes standing guard till it crossed my mind
i was wrong, all along all that i needed, was to have heeded
hakuna matata what a wonderful phrase hakuna matata ain't no passing craze
it means no worries for the rest of your days it's our problem free philosophy hakuna matata
when i was a shallow youth (when he was a shallow youth) a fool for perfection i was never that good i was a pawn in the game i saw no trees for the wood my future stretched behind me i was over the hill i put my best foot forward while the other one stood still
take my word i have heard all that i needed is to have heeded
hakuna matata what a wonderful phrase, yeah hakuna matata ain't no passin craze
it means no worries for the rest of your days it's our problem free philosophy hakuna matata hakuna matata hakuna matata hakuna matata hakuna matata
hakuna matata i hoped we have conveyed don't hafta bust, get out of the sun it's much cooler in the shade some say it's just a waste of time but they don't realize that the view is nothing but a crime we're all creatures worldliwise
hakuna matata (hakuna matata) hakuna matata (hakuna matata) it means no worries (it means no worries man) its our problem free philosophy hakuna matata
hakuna matata what a wonderful phrase, yeah hakuna matata (yeah, yeah) ain't no passing craze (yeah) it means mo worries for the rest of your da-ays it's our problam free (s'our problem free) philosophy (philosophy) Hakuna matata (hakuna matata) what a wonderful phrase, yeah hakuna matata ain't no passing craze - starts fading out - (hey) it means no worries (means no worries) for the rest of your da-ays - fades out -
So she says, "Everyone's going to the party Won't you come if I come with a friend for your friend? I'd be so pleased to see you Out of the classroom, Wearing the smile that I'll bring you. I was hoping to learn a few things, like........ Do you do you like dishing the dirt On the whole class, Talking the big smack, Or playing the fool? Wearing all of the latest fashions Or bucking the new trends? Wearing your old threads Or if you like coffee in the evening. These are a few things, That I'd like to know; That I'd like to know."
So I say, "I've been scheduled to work, But I'll call in. And, my friend isn't busy, He'd be happy to join me. And maybe my friend and your friend Will hit it off? Or, maybe we will? I'm dying to know........ Do you, do you like dreaming Of things so impossible? Or only the practical, Or ever the wild? Waiting through all of your Bad, bad days; Just to end them With someone you care about? But do you like making out, And long drives and brown eyes And guys that just don't quite fit in? "Do you like them?"
Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep. This air is blessed, you share with me. This night is wild, so calm and dull. These hearts, they race from self-control. Your legs are smooth as they graze mine. We're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me, So won't you kill me, so I die happy? My heart is yours, to fill or burst, To break or bury, or wear as jewelry. Whichever you prefer.
The words are hushed, let's not get busted. Just lay entwined here, undiscovered; Safe in here from all the stupid questions. "Hey, did you get some?" Man, that is so dumb. Stay quiet, stay near, stay close, They can't hear, so we can get some.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me, So won't you kill me, so I die happy? My heart is yours, to fill or burst, To break or bury, or wear as jewelry. Whichever you prefer.
Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember. I'll always remember the sound of the stereo, The dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair, That you twirled in your fingers. And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late. And this walk that we shared together. The streets were wet and the gate was locked, So I jumped it and I let you in, And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist, And you kissed me like you meant it, And I knew that you meant it. That you meant it, that you meant it. And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it.
When I see your smile tears roll down my face. I can't replace.
And now that I'm strong I have figured out how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul, and I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one.
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven.
It's ok... It's ok... It's ok...
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing and stars are falling all for us days grow longer and nights grow shorter I can show you I'll be the one.
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever. I'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven.
Cause you're my you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart, please don't throw that away.
Cause I'm here, for you please don't walk away and please tell me you'll stay, stay..
Use me as you will pull my strings just for a thrill and I know I'll be okay though my skies are turning gray.
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all even if saving you sends me to heaven.
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all even if saving you sends me to heaven.
So, I've made up my mind I will pretend to leave this world behind And in the end, you'll know I've lied To get your attention I'm faking my own suicide
I'm faking my own suicide Because I know you love me You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide They'll hold a double funeral Because a part of you will die Along with me
I wish you thought that I was dead So rather than me, you'd be depressed instead And before arriving at my grave You'd come to the conclusion You'd loved me all your days But it's too late Too late for you to say
Because I'm faking my own suicide Because I know you love me You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide They'll hold a double funeral Because a part of you will die Along with me
I'll write you a letter that you'll keep Reminding you your love for me is more than six feet deep You say aloud that you would have been my wife Right about that time is when I come back to life And let you know I'd let you know that all along I was...
I was faking my own suicide Because I know you loved me You just never realized
I was faking my own suicide I'll walk in that room and see your eyes opened so wide Opened so wide Because you know
Because you know you will never leave my side Until the day that I die for the first time And we'll laugh, yeah we'll laugh And we will cry So overjoyed with our love that's so alive Our love is so alive
