LIFE JOURNAL
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not knowing where to go or who to find, he ended up writing this journal.
he has the life of an ordinary person, yet the way of thinking of a melancholia.
he just doesn't know how to find that four-letter thing.
P. S. the navigator buttons are the colored bookmarks.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Nothing's special today. Just same daily activities. I slept at 2.30 A.M and woke up at 11 A.M, just as usual. Ohh yeah, I didn't dream last night. Wonder where it goes. lol. There's no dream of her. *sob*
I had work to do at 2 and it ended at 4. After that, I accompanied my friend to MF to buy CD-RW. Then we went to Jl. Orion to buy some stuffs.
I know that I would be so bored at home, so when we're going home, I decided to come by my other friends' house while he headed home. These little friendies are siblings, 2 girls, but absolutely had very different characteristic. One is feminine, one is masculine. lol.. I'd like to see the masculine one. :DD She had some problems in photoshop(I admit it that I am not good in photoshop either, but her problems were totally simple!), and she would like to ask for my help. Ckck..
As I showed her how it ran, and how to edit the photo like the one she wanted, she was like "That's it? Just that?? That simple?!". lol. At last, you realized how easy that was, huh? :DD
I went back home at 6.30 A.M. This night, my sis' boy brought game. Happy for that, for I was too bored to do something else. :) He brought UNO stacko. Simple game but fun though. Here the picture of the record. 23 levels, bro. lol..
One last word dedicated to a girl named Cindy Tantarica. No more tears. You gotta be strong! Okay?
Last night's dream was just as weird as my dream before. Plus, how could I dream so often? I've not been dreaming for so long, which has made me forgot about what my last dream was about. But now, 2 nights in a row. Never have I experienced this kind of stuff before. What happened in my dream was actually the real thing.
Not only Wyn-Chan appeared at my dream last night ,but also Aden showed up! Things were getting weirder, huh? And there's still no sign of HER being in my dream. This night, maybe? lol..
Here it is. "I think I was doing some shopping with my sister at Carefour, Medan Fair. It was there where I met them. Both of them were doing the same thing as we were. Okay, I was still fine with that. Carefour is a public place, everyone might be in there. I looked at them, they looked at me, they recognized me, and they called me. Okay, still fine. We know each other. We're not close though. But it's still normal. We chit-chat for a while, talked about.. you know what.. :DD Then they decided to join us. Okay, I was fine with it. When my sister and I were going back, for we had another thing to do, Wyn-Chan and Aden joined us as well! Everything isn't fine now. I remember that we're going to VS(you might not know what it is), which I became the speaker! Hoahh.. And we were all in the same car as we went there! The VS ended at 11 P.M and still, they joined us when we're going home. What shocked me a lot was that they stayed at my home that night! We didn't have guest room, so they slept with me. WTH?! That's when I woke up and found that it's already 10 A.M."
I woke up with sudden this morning. It might be my dream which bothered me. What I'd just seen was unbelievable.
"I was at my mom's house, I guess. I recognized every wall i saw, every ornament I touched; yeah, it's my mom's house. Then i got a phone call. I don't really remember what we're talking though. Few minutes later, I heard car blowing its horn. It seemed like it's calling me out. I walked out and I found a luxury car parking in front of the house. I saw someone jumped out from that car and here's the thing. I was so surprised that I found 'a friend of her' standing right there. It's Wyn-Chan! (you're in my dream, Wyn! lol..) Cause I still didn't know that it was just a dream, I was shocked like I was going to die. As you all could know, I don't really know her. I've never met her. I just know that she's a friend of HER. We've just ever talked from the internet. And I've never thought that I would meet her, ever. But suddenly she's here. Why could she come then? Besides, it's my mom's house. No one know I've ever lived here. She greeted me.. like we've been so closed. We're like a couple! (no offense, Wyn. lol..) WTH with that? lol.. :DD I was so shocked actually!! That's when I woke up."
I found that it's been 11 A.M. Whoah.. Please, dreams don't always come true, right? lol.. I'm kidding, Wyn. :) Why didn't SHE take Wyn-Chan's place? :DD
As I woke up, I checked my cellphone and there's a message from her. This really calmed me. We didn't contact each other lately. I don't know why but my call and my message didn't get respond from her. Of course, this message written "from Vivi" had that effect. I opened that message and there's 'Merry Christmas'. Ohh yeah, it's December 25th! It's been Christmas.. Merry Christmas everybody! And Merry Christmas to you too, Vi..
Today's our(fam) day then. We're going to exchange presents! I've waited this day for a long time. :)
Let's just see what had happened with our presents! By the way, people are rude when we're talking about presents, aren't they? See what they've done with the papers. :DD
It's good. A plastic cup. (receiver: Titi)
Hoah.. It's better. A plastic cup, but bigger and there's a handle on it. FYI, there's a picture of Spongebob and yeah, Gary on it too. Who's next? (receiver: Boiboi)
Whoah.. Here's the best one. What do we call it? Toilet brush? Toilet cleaner? Toilet equipment? IDC. :) It's special, you know? I can't live without it. lol.. :DD Hell yeah, they're totally freaked out! Ckck.. (receiver: Titi)
This is what i got. Weird, doesn't it? They purposely kept it in hello panda's bag so it seemed big. They even kept a stone with it to make it heavy. But the present is good. Not as mine. lol.. Thanks fam. (By the way, If you didn't need that brush, you could give it to me. lol..) (receiver: Garry the Weirdo)
A cup and some weird ornament. (receiver: Meimei)
Ornament made by glass and furry girly thing. Luckily I didn't get it. (receiver: sister Jessica)
Album. No comment. :D (receiver: Jenny)
Cup.. Is Christmas connected with cups? Ckck.. (receiver: Dad)
..... Another cup. :| (receiver: Aunt Lina)
After the party's done, I decided to give one more present to my FRIEND, Cindy Tantarica. For real. :DD I planned to visit her house but it seemed like she's not home. She went to Sun Plaza. So I changed my objection to Sun. As I arrived there, I received a message telling me that she's gone home. Hoah.. What a trip. lol.. I think I will just give her on Sunday at the Church. She had a Christmas card for me too. Happy for that. lol.. Another thing, Cin. Please bring my FD with you on Sunday. :)
I've passed 2 days without posting. Yeah.. It's because I stayed at my mom's house this 2 days. No internet available there so I wasn't on line.
Here I am again. What to post, huh? It's midday now. I usually post at night so I may tell all the things I've experienced that day; however, I have nothing to do now, so I decide to post.
Let's see.. First of all, I'd like to wish you all a very very merry Christmas! It's not been Christmas yet though, but I could have felt the spirit of Christmas rush into me. lol.. I'll present you all 'The Christmas Song' by STACEY KENT Click play to begin.
"Chestnuts roasting on an open fire Jack Frost nipping at your nose Yuletide carols being sung by a choir And folks dressed up like Eskimos
Everybody knows a turkey and some mistletoe Help to make the season bright Tiny tots with their eyes all aglow Will find it hard to sleep tonight
They know that Santa's on his way He's loaded lots of toys and goodies on his sleigh And every mother's child is going to spy To see if reindeer really know how to fly
And so I'm offering this simple phrase To kids from one to ninety-two Although it's been said many times many ways Merry Christmas to you.
And so I'm offering this simple phrase To kids from one to ninety-two Although it's been said many times many ways Merry Christmas to you."
Second of all, I'd like her to come back to Medan soon! All I want for Christmas is HER.. :D
Third of all, I like miracles! And I've felt Christmas miracles since last year. So I really wish that miracles will happen AGAIN this year.
The last, May we all feel joy for everything we've been through, and for everything we'll be.
This Christmas will be totally sensational for us(me and my family)! I can't stop laughing! lol.. :DD Whoahh.. It's killing me. I really wanna see his/her face to whom I'm gonna give my present. lol. lol. lol. Fam, who will get the lucky strike? I'll be happy for you! Ckckckck..
We're planing to exchange presents at Christmas. It's kinda fun actually, for we've never done this before. What tingles me a lot is the presents I'm gonna give. It's damn weird! lol.. They are so gonna freaked out!
What will it be? Let see when it's Christmas.. Hohoho.. :) To be continue
Today's report day. And we, the students of St. Thomas 1, would have got our reports! I hate this day. Beuhh.. You know, if I was Indi(which is totally not gonna happen, since she is SHE and I am a GUY), I might be happy for today. She is the 1st rank in the class(++ class, dude), i guess.. just like as always.
But.. IT'S ME, AND I GET ONLY THE 36TH RANK OF 51 STUDENTS!! Whoah.. Never mind that. Still, I have high average mark. Happy for that. lol.. It's 84.31. Isn't that enough? :DD
As I went home, my sister called me. She asked me to dress formal. You know, I could just have thought, "What for? Getting the 36th rank doesn't mean that I have to celebrate it as I'm going to get married.." But at last, I just knew that I was going to join my sister's graduation photography. Congratulation sis anyway!
Kevin's coming. He came just to show me one "hell-yeah-it-is-thick-just-like-my-encyclopedia-in-my-garage-which-has-got-rotten-all-the-year" book. lol. It's good actually and it's written in English. I love the subject. About some tricks and tips how to talk to everyone in a good way which people will like. Thank Kev. :DD But hell yeah, it's thick. lol.
Today ended with chat. I chatted with her friend, asked if she'd like to help me. :) I think she had some network problems there, for she's dc so often. Hope that it'll be better soon.
Some weird things keep happening. I felt De' Javu so often lately. I saw someone who is gaga whom I certainly didn't know about, but surely rang a bell. I started to feel something awkward happened to my body, but it didn't bothered me at all. No pain, no stress, no weird feeling, but I knew that something happened in here. And right the night before today, I reached the climax.. maybe. I slept around 1 A.M. I knew, and I'm sure that I've heard screaming and scratching and irons jangling outside. WTH was that? Then, this morning, I woke up at 8! It was the first time, since I'm a sleeping guy who won't wake up before I've slept for 8 hours or more. And I'm sure too that I'd been waken up by something but I don't know what it was. Wow.. That's damn scary. Hope that this will be the last!
It is so so so not fair! The plan I've arranged properly must be canceled just because of 1 silly thing i forgot about. How..how..HOW??
She(you know who) had told me about her spending her Christmas and New Year's holiday to her hometown in Pekan Baru. She had really told me about that. And how could i forget about it? It's not damn fair.
I was planning to come to her house at Christmas Eve. For what? Here it is.. or it was. :(
"Christmas Eve is a special day for me. And I will be at her house that day if she's not staying at Pekan Baru. She's going to be home at January. It's so terrible! I'd planned to tell her my feeling. The 3rd time.
She likes number 13. And I was going to bring her 12 red roses with 'Merry Christmas', and with poem or love letter. Why 12? 'Cause I was going to say, "I bring you this 12 roses and just 12 roses cause you are and will always be my 13th rose, dear." lol. Isn't that great? :DD That would be great if she's not gone. :( That's when I will tell her my feeling."
Nick Vujicic was totally cool! He's so much better than that Edward Cullen(whom girls are crazy about). No offense, bro. lol.. Not cool by his appearance, but by something else. Nick Vujicic is a man without limb. And he's a preacher. He lives in the spirit of Jesus Christ, and with the faith to Jesus, he finds out that he can do everything without limit though he doesn't have limb. He's staying in Indonesia to preach. Today's is his last day to preach here, and I'm so grateful and pleased to come to hear his sermon. It was so inspiring me! It was held in pardede hall and you have known how big that hall is. And it's full with people when I came there! Wow..
He's a humorist guy, he told us many funny stories and his expression in telling was so so entertaining! He doesn't have limb but an imperfect short leg. But.. with that leg, he could play many kind of instruments using his small device which could produce many sounds. What amazed me was that he could play it very well! That's so cool! I was like "Wow". I who have perfect limb can't play that good. :p
He taught us many things. About knowing Jesus, about forgiveness, about faith, etc. And the coolest things that could have happened were the miracles! They're all real! It's my first time to see miracle! It's miracle, dude! The paralyzed person has been cured, and has walked by himself after 15 years of sitting down. Isn't that crazy? I could really sense God's existence there. God's freed me. It was so calm inside me. And I cried! I know that's shameful. But i don't know why, i cried in sudden. :DD I learned something from his sermon, that we're totally insane if we still think there's something we can't do. Nothing is Impossible. lol. I really don't regret to attend his sermon. Thanks God.. :DD
Today's my big sis' birthday. Happy birthday! Wish you all the best. :DD There were so many things to do this day.
I woke up because of the heat outside. Sun were shining brightly while i was still half-awake. Yeah.. I have another holiday today. For the science classes, today's holiday. The tenth grade classes and the social classes were still having their exams, so they still needed our classes. I'm happy for that! lol. I was actually lazy to go to Sun plaza, but I've had an appointment there. Got to work! :DD Unfortunately, this man came late. He made me had to wait for 1 hour and half. Wow.. That's quite long. I had another thing to do at 4, so I postponed it until tomorrow. Hoaaa.. Gonna met him again tomorrow. :-\ I immediately went to Winfield at 3.45 pm where i could see nobody. It's all empty. Did I go to the wrong place? They gotta be kidding me. :DD I met someone there, but then i was asked to go to the Wesley church immediately. That's kinda trip. lol. I would perform there! Wow.. I almost forgot about that. Jodhi and I would sing songs which we're given just 3 days to learn. And as expected, it didn't end very well. Jodhi and I would have performed so bad that I could just bury myself alive. lol. Never mind that. We're all just having fun.
I went home, and here's my last trip. :DD I was going to 'my mother's friend's daughter's marriage', or 'my sister's friend's marriage', or 'my friend's sister's marriage'. lol.. She is too young to have the marriage. She is just the same as my sister, about 20-21 years old. She's kinda fast. :DD We had a party there and what interested me the most was the wine. lol. I love drinking wine. I drank 2 glasses of wine that night which made my face turned so so so red! lol.. :DD My mother and sister were like "Wow. You're tomato"! lol. I couldn't stop laughing and smiling like i was going crazy. Was it the effect of the wine? IDC. lol. It's tasty!
What completed this day was the chat. I love today's chat! lol.. Yea.. You all know what could make me feel so happy. It's her! Hoaaaa.. She's so great. I could see her face all night. :DD How it could be? No photos, we're on web cam! It's so so awesome. I don't have web cam, so what i did all night was seeing her face without her seeing me. lol. She let me did it, bro. :DD But of course, after negotiation. :) And patience still took a place after all! lol.. She's so cute! ( Vanda: A million and eight. :D ) Every act she did was charming. I couldn't be bored seeing her all night. But then I was asked to sleep. How poor.. But I enjoyed every single thing I've done today.
Today's holiday. I got a chance to sleep longer. :DD I started my day, reading a book. lol. That's so not me! But I wanted to try a new habit for my boring life. It's fun, I think. :)
My father's birthday has passed. But my sister and I haven't given him any present yet. So we decided to go to MF to have some present to give. We found a nice wallet and we agreed to give him that stuff. We were supposed to be at home before 6, but we're late. We would have some dinner together. My father tried to phone us, but we didn't answer any of his calls. I knew he would be mad. When we arrived home, he began to scold us. Here's the thing. He became calm as we gave the wallet. You must see his face! lol.. That's fun. :DD
We had our dinner at hanamasa. Tomorrow will be my sister's birthday, so we celebrated it today as my sister was around. Happy birthday sis! Yeah, it's the end of today.
Sunday, December 7th 2008. Today's such a boring day. I passed this day just as usual. It's sunny when it's day. But then.. Night came. I heard, I felt rain, coming right into my room. I would never forget about this night. She cried. I heard her crying. She cried in despair. It's like world was going to turn upside down. I listened to her crying. And I felt more than sadness, anger, worry, and others joined into one. She cried!! I almost cried because of hearing her crying.. Today's rain's more than usual. The rain sounded so sad.
"I was transferring some data from my cellphone to my computer. My cellphone was not supposed to receive message during the transferring. Having unplugged my cellphone, i heard my message tone ringing. It's her. That's kinda weird. Never did she text me first. I read the message, written that i should be on line ASAP. It made the thing became weirder. Something's wrong. I found her was on line. I called her, but suddenly, she told me that she had broken up. She then asked me to phone her. I was shocked when i heard her weeping. She's been so difficult to breathe. I was so sad. I heard her crying for about 15 minutes. It's killing me! She was crying. And what i did was nothing but sitting down, hearing her crying."
I was a useless man. And that guy... FUCK HIM!!! "I still love you, I didn't mean to hurt you and I don't change at all". Bla.. Bla.. Bla.. You and your big mouth!
Today, Jodhi's coming. After a long boring day, my friend came! Hoahh. Thanks God. lol.. We're going to have our performance in the Wesley Church, December 9th, Winfield's Christmas celebration. And he came here to practice. It's so much fun! We sang along all day, screamed like crazy in my house, disturbed my neighbor who just had their beautiful sleep. lol.. We decided to sing a song, but there's 2 songs that we liked. They are 'Angel We Have Heard on High' and 'The Christmas Song'. Which one is better? I love both! Anw, we're so nervous! It's at Tuesday and we've just practiced once. We're going to go to Jeff's house tomorrow to have another practice with his brother, Ray. I wish we won't do something shameful during our performance. Wish us luck!
Today should have been my happiest day of my life, when my exam's done, when i was going out with her. But! Knowing that that damned man made vivi crying, I can't enjoy my day! What's wrong with you?
I've never imagined that she could cry that easy. That man is damn crazy! She even did what i know she would never do to that damned guy. He didn't even give any respond to that! What happened with you?! You--are--totally--insane!! She loves you! And do you see what you've done? Sigh.. I can't make her loves me. :( You, FO!!
You have made her cry. You're SOB! Don't you realize that she loves you? I can't even make her loves me. But you? You've got it all. How dare you?! Fuck off!
Oh yeah.. I forgot about you, J***. Sorry but no sorry. Lol. I will fight for her. You've done something bad to her. it's unforgivable. Let's see who laughs the last. :DD
Here's the best! I've just passed the best day of my life! Friday, December 5th 2008, 12.27 pm. My second meeting with her! And guess what? I had a date with her! :DD Along with her friends(Vanda and Cia-Cia), of course. lol. Thanks to 'Twilight'. Because of that movie, she's going out with me. lol. That day was the best best best day of my life. As I said, it used to be hard to ask her out. But this time, i didn't know why, it's like a piece of cake. lol. What changed her mind? IDC. :DD She was so pretty, so cute, so so so! I love her! Just you all could know, i couldn't even sleep at the night before our date. That's nonsense, huh? But that's the fact. lol. I always felt like my heart could jump out from its hideout. It's really weird! I've never felt this way. I'm getting sure that i really love her.
It used to be hard to ask Vivi out. Since my first try, i'd asked her for about other 187 times. lol. i'm kidding. :DD But it's true that it's so hard to ask her. it's been months since my first try but still, she didn't want to meet me. Whoah! In the other day, I was having my walk at Sun plaza with my friends. And i knew that she was there too. that's kinda opportunity for me. :DD I then asked her to meet. But again, she refused me. i kept on asking and amazingly she wanted to at last. that really needed patience! lol. We met... just for about 5 minutes and she's gone. What kind of meeting was that? lol. i've never forgot about that 5-minutes-meeting. :DD But it's enough to make me felt happier. Hope that we could be closer each day. :)
Here is the story. As you all know, i fall in love with a girl named Vivi. Yea,she's so cute! And i'm crazy about her. Just FYI, i knew her from friendster(i love you, friendster! lol..). We're getting close when we had our first chat at msn. Then, i asked for her numbers. I started to text her and gave a call. That's so gonna make me die happy. Lol.. I love her that much that i can't stop thinking of her! :DD I then asked her out and here's the problem. Yea, she might not believe me as we knew each other from the internet. That made me really sad. What to do? Then i told her what i felt about her and here came another problem. she thought that i was joking. Yeah.. Who doesn't? We'd just known each other for about 3 months and i started to ask for a date. We'd just known each other for about 3 months without any meeting and I'd told her that i loved her. In Indonesia, that's a really nonsense thing. I tried to convince her and she believed me at last. But she said that we can't make it that way. Hoahh! That hurt. For a few next months, i still text her. Surprisingly, i knew from her friend that she's in a relationship with a guy named J***. And it's killing me! Never did i feel that hurt. She's gone. TO BE CONTINUE.. lol.
Again! I'll remake this blog. It's been months since my last visit to this blog, and I find it all in inappropriate way. Weird blog from the weird man. lol. Why did i decide to remake this blog again? Simply because of the most fantastic day i've ever had in my life! I might want to share it to the others. Or it may just be a sweet memory for me to remember later on. :DD I'll tell it at the other post. Cheer guys!
Nothing's special today. Just same daily activities. I slept at 2.30 A.M and woke up at 11 A.M, just as usual. Ohh yeah, I didn't dream last night. Wonder where it goes. lol. There's no dream of her. *sob*
I had work to do at 2 and it ended at 4. After that, I accompanied my friend to MF to buy CD-RW. Then we went to Jl. Orion to buy some stuffs.
I know that I would be so bored at home, so when we're going home, I decided to come by my other friends' house while he headed home. These little friendies are siblings, 2 girls, but absolutely had very different characteristic. One is feminine, one is masculine. lol.. I'd like to see the masculine one. :DD She had some problems in photoshop(I admit it that I am not good in photoshop either, but her problems were totally simple!), and she would like to ask for my help. Ckck..
As I showed her how it ran, and how to edit the photo like the one she wanted, she was like "That's it? Just that?? That simple?!". lol. At last, you realized how easy that was, huh? :DD
I went back home at 6.30 A.M. This night, my sis' boy brought game. Happy for that, for I was too bored to do something else. :) He brought UNO stacko. Simple game but fun though. Here the picture of the record. 23 levels, bro. lol..
One last word dedicated to a girl named Cindy Tantarica. No more tears. You gotta be strong! Okay?
Last night's dream was just as weird as my dream before. Plus, how could I dream so often? I've not been dreaming for so long, which has made me forgot about what my last dream was about. But now, 2 nights in a row. Never have I experienced this kind of stuff before. What happened in my dream was actually the real thing.
Not only Wyn-Chan appeared at my dream last night ,but also Aden showed up! Things were getting weirder, huh? And there's still no sign of HER being in my dream. This night, maybe? lol..
Here it is. "I think I was doing some shopping with my sister at Carefour, Medan Fair. It was there where I met them. Both of them were doing the same thing as we were. Okay, I was still fine with that. Carefour is a public place, everyone might be in there. I looked at them, they looked at me, they recognized me, and they called me. Okay, still fine. We know each other. We're not close though. But it's still normal. We chit-chat for a while, talked about.. you know what.. :DD Then they decided to join us. Okay, I was fine with it. When my sister and I were going back, for we had another thing to do, Wyn-Chan and Aden joined us as well! Everything isn't fine now. I remember that we're going to VS(you might not know what it is), which I became the speaker! Hoahh.. And we were all in the same car as we went there! The VS ended at 11 P.M and still, they joined us when we're going home. What shocked me a lot was that they stayed at my home that night! We didn't have guest room, so they slept with me. WTH?! That's when I woke up and found that it's already 10 A.M."
I woke up with sudden this morning. It might be my dream which bothered me. What I'd just seen was unbelievable.
"I was at my mom's house, I guess. I recognized every wall i saw, every ornament I touched; yeah, it's my mom's house. Then i got a phone call. I don't really remember what we're talking though. Few minutes later, I heard car blowing its horn. It seemed like it's calling me out. I walked out and I found a luxury car parking in front of the house. I saw someone jumped out from that car and here's the thing. I was so surprised that I found 'a friend of her' standing right there. It's Wyn-Chan! (you're in my dream, Wyn! lol..) Cause I still didn't know that it was just a dream, I was shocked like I was going to die. As you all could know, I don't really know her. I've never met her. I just know that she's a friend of HER. We've just ever talked from the internet. And I've never thought that I would meet her, ever. But suddenly she's here. Why could she come then? Besides, it's my mom's house. No one know I've ever lived here. She greeted me.. like we've been so closed. We're like a couple! (no offense, Wyn. lol..) WTH with that? lol.. :DD I was so shocked actually!! That's when I woke up."
I found that it's been 11 A.M. Whoah.. Please, dreams don't always come true, right? lol.. I'm kidding, Wyn. :) Why didn't SHE take Wyn-Chan's place? :DD
As I woke up, I checked my cellphone and there's a message from her. This really calmed me. We didn't contact each other lately. I don't know why but my call and my message didn't get respond from her. Of course, this message written "from Vivi" had that effect. I opened that message and there's 'Merry Christmas'. Ohh yeah, it's December 25th! It's been Christmas.. Merry Christmas everybody! And Merry Christmas to you too, Vi..
Today's our(fam) day then. We're going to exchange presents! I've waited this day for a long time. :)
Let's just see what had happened with our presents! By the way, people are rude when we're talking about presents, aren't they? See what they've done with the papers. :DD
It's good. A plastic cup. (receiver: Titi)
Hoah.. It's better. A plastic cup, but bigger and there's a handle on it. FYI, there's a picture of Spongebob and yeah, Gary on it too. Who's next? (receiver: Boiboi)
Whoah.. Here's the best one. What do we call it? Toilet brush? Toilet cleaner? Toilet equipment? IDC. :) It's special, you know? I can't live without it. lol.. :DD Hell yeah, they're totally freaked out! Ckck.. (receiver: Titi)
This is what i got. Weird, doesn't it? They purposely kept it in hello panda's bag so it seemed big. They even kept a stone with it to make it heavy. But the present is good. Not as mine. lol.. Thanks fam. (By the way, If you didn't need that brush, you could give it to me. lol..) (receiver: Garry the Weirdo)
A cup and some weird ornament. (receiver: Meimei)
Ornament made by glass and furry girly thing. Luckily I didn't get it. (receiver: sister Jessica)
Album. No comment. :D (receiver: Jenny)
Cup.. Is Christmas connected with cups? Ckck.. (receiver: Dad)
..... Another cup. :| (receiver: Aunt Lina)
After the party's done, I decided to give one more present to my FRIEND, Cindy Tantarica. For real. :DD I planned to visit her house but it seemed like she's not home. She went to Sun Plaza. So I changed my objection to Sun. As I arrived there, I received a message telling me that she's gone home. Hoah.. What a trip. lol.. I think I will just give her on Sunday at the Church. She had a Christmas card for me too. Happy for that. lol.. Another thing, Cin. Please bring my FD with you on Sunday. :)
I've passed 2 days without posting. Yeah.. It's because I stayed at my mom's house this 2 days. No internet available there so I wasn't on line.
Here I am again. What to post, huh? It's midday now. I usually post at night so I may tell all the things I've experienced that day; however, I have nothing to do now, so I decide to post.
Let's see.. First of all, I'd like to wish you all a very very merry Christmas! It's not been Christmas yet though, but I could have felt the spirit of Christmas rush into me. lol.. I'll present you all 'The Christmas Song' by STACEY KENT Click play to begin.
"Chestnuts roasting on an open fire Jack Frost nipping at your nose Yuletide carols being sung by a choir And folks dressed up like Eskimos
Everybody knows a turkey and some mistletoe Help to make the season bright Tiny tots with their eyes all aglow Will find it hard to sleep tonight
They know that Santa's on his way He's loaded lots of toys and goodies on his sleigh And every mother's child is going to spy To see if reindeer really know how to fly
And so I'm offering this simple phrase To kids from one to ninety-two Although it's been said many times many ways Merry Christmas to you.
And so I'm offering this simple phrase To kids from one to ninety-two Although it's been said many times many ways Merry Christmas to you."
Second of all, I'd like her to come back to Medan soon! All I want for Christmas is HER.. :D
Third of all, I like miracles! And I've felt Christmas miracles since last year. So I really wish that miracles will happen AGAIN this year.
The last, May we all feel joy for everything we've been through, and for everything we'll be.
This Christmas will be totally sensational for us(me and my family)! I can't stop laughing! lol.. :DD Whoahh.. It's killing me. I really wanna see his/her face to whom I'm gonna give my present. lol. lol. lol. Fam, who will get the lucky strike? I'll be happy for you! Ckckckck..
We're planing to exchange presents at Christmas. It's kinda fun actually, for we've never done this before. What tingles me a lot is the presents I'm gonna give. It's damn weird! lol.. They are so gonna freaked out!
What will it be? Let see when it's Christmas.. Hohoho.. :) To be continue
Today's report day. And we, the students of St. Thomas 1, would have got our reports! I hate this day. Beuhh.. You know, if I was Indi(which is totally not gonna happen, since she is SHE and I am a GUY), I might be happy for today. She is the 1st rank in the class(++ class, dude), i guess.. just like as always.
But.. IT'S ME, AND I GET ONLY THE 36TH RANK OF 51 STUDENTS!! Whoah.. Never mind that. Still, I have high average mark. Happy for that. lol.. It's 84.31. Isn't that enough? :DD
As I went home, my sister called me. She asked me to dress formal. You know, I could just have thought, "What for? Getting the 36th rank doesn't mean that I have to celebrate it as I'm going to get married.." But at last, I just knew that I was going to join my sister's graduation photography. Congratulation sis anyway!
Kevin's coming. He came just to show me one "hell-yeah-it-is-thick-just-like-my-encyclopedia-in-my-garage-which-has-got-rotten-all-the-year" book. lol. It's good actually and it's written in English. I love the subject. About some tricks and tips how to talk to everyone in a good way which people will like. Thank Kev. :DD But hell yeah, it's thick. lol.
Today ended with chat. I chatted with her friend, asked if she'd like to help me. :) I think she had some network problems there, for she's dc so often. Hope that it'll be better soon.
Some weird things keep happening. I felt De' Javu so often lately. I saw someone who is gaga whom I certainly didn't know about, but surely rang a bell. I started to feel something awkward happened to my body, but it didn't bothered me at all. No pain, no stress, no weird feeling, but I knew that something happened in here. And right the night before today, I reached the climax.. maybe. I slept around 1 A.M. I knew, and I'm sure that I've heard screaming and scratching and irons jangling outside. WTH was that? Then, this morning, I woke up at 8! It was the first time, since I'm a sleeping guy who won't wake up before I've slept for 8 hours or more. And I'm sure too that I'd been waken up by something but I don't know what it was. Wow.. That's damn scary. Hope that this will be the last!
It is so so so not fair! The plan I've arranged properly must be canceled just because of 1 silly thing i forgot about. How..how..HOW??
She(you know who) had told me about her spending her Christmas and New Year's holiday to her hometown in Pekan Baru. She had really told me about that. And how could i forget about it? It's not damn fair.
I was planning to come to her house at Christmas Eve. For what? Here it is.. or it was. :(
"Christmas Eve is a special day for me. And I will be at her house that day if she's not staying at Pekan Baru. She's going to be home at January. It's so terrible! I'd planned to tell her my feeling. The 3rd time.
She likes number 13. And I was going to bring her 12 red roses with 'Merry Christmas', and with poem or love letter. Why 12? 'Cause I was going to say, "I bring you this 12 roses and just 12 roses cause you are and will always be my 13th rose, dear." lol. Isn't that great? :DD That would be great if she's not gone. :( That's when I will tell her my feeling."
Nick Vujicic was totally cool! He's so much better than that Edward Cullen(whom girls are crazy about). No offense, bro. lol.. Not cool by his appearance, but by something else. Nick Vujicic is a man without limb. And he's a preacher. He lives in the spirit of Jesus Christ, and with the faith to Jesus, he finds out that he can do everything without limit though he doesn't have limb. He's staying in Indonesia to preach. Today's is his last day to preach here, and I'm so grateful and pleased to come to hear his sermon. It was so inspiring me! It was held in pardede hall and you have known how big that hall is. And it's full with people when I came there! Wow..
He's a humorist guy, he told us many funny stories and his expression in telling was so so entertaining! He doesn't have limb but an imperfect short leg. But.. with that leg, he could play many kind of instruments using his small device which could produce many sounds. What amazed me was that he could play it very well! That's so cool! I was like "Wow". I who have perfect limb can't play that good. :p
He taught us many things. About knowing Jesus, about forgiveness, about faith, etc. And the coolest things that could have happened were the miracles! They're all real! It's my first time to see miracle! It's miracle, dude! The paralyzed person has been cured, and has walked by himself after 15 years of sitting down. Isn't that crazy? I could really sense God's existence there. God's freed me. It was so calm inside me. And I cried! I know that's shameful. But i don't know why, i cried in sudden. :DD I learned something from his sermon, that we're totally insane if we still think there's something we can't do. Nothing is Impossible. lol. I really don't regret to attend his sermon. Thanks God.. :DD
Today's my big sis' birthday. Happy birthday! Wish you all the best. :DD There were so many things to do this day.
I woke up because of the heat outside. Sun were shining brightly while i was still half-awake. Yeah.. I have another holiday today. For the science classes, today's holiday. The tenth grade classes and the social classes were still having their exams, so they still needed our classes. I'm happy for that! lol. I was actually lazy to go to Sun plaza, but I've had an appointment there. Got to work! :DD Unfortunately, this man came late. He made me had to wait for 1 hour and half. Wow.. That's quite long. I had another thing to do at 4, so I postponed it until tomorrow. Hoaaa.. Gonna met him again tomorrow. :-\ I immediately went to Winfield at 3.45 pm where i could see nobody. It's all empty. Did I go to the wrong place? They gotta be kidding me. :DD I met someone there, but then i was asked to go to the Wesley church immediately. That's kinda trip. lol. I would perform there! Wow.. I almost forgot about that. Jodhi and I would sing songs which we're given just 3 days to learn. And as expected, it didn't end very well. Jodhi and I would have performed so bad that I could just bury myself alive. lol. Never mind that. We're all just having fun.
I went home, and here's my last trip. :DD I was going to 'my mother's friend's daughter's marriage', or 'my sister's friend's marriage', or 'my friend's sister's marriage'. lol.. She is too young to have the marriage. She is just the same as my sister, about 20-21 years old. She's kinda fast. :DD We had a party there and what interested me the most was the wine. lol. I love drinking wine. I drank 2 glasses of wine that night which made my face turned so so so red! lol.. :DD My mother and sister were like "Wow. You're tomato"! lol. I couldn't stop laughing and smiling like i was going crazy. Was it the effect of the wine? IDC. lol. It's tasty!
What completed this day was the chat. I love today's chat! lol.. Yea.. You all know what could make me feel so happy. It's her! Hoaaaa.. She's so great. I could see her face all night. :DD How it could be? No photos, we're on web cam! It's so so awesome. I don't have web cam, so what i did all night was seeing her face without her seeing me. lol. She let me did it, bro. :DD But of course, after negotiation. :) And patience still took a place after all! lol.. She's so cute! ( Vanda: A million and eight. :D ) Every act she did was charming. I couldn't be bored seeing her all night. But then I was asked to sleep. How poor.. But I enjoyed every single thing I've done today.
Today's holiday. I got a chance to sleep longer. :DD I started my day, reading a book. lol. That's so not me! But I wanted to try a new habit for my boring life. It's fun, I think. :)
My father's birthday has passed. But my sister and I haven't given him any present yet. So we decided to go to MF to have some present to give. We found a nice wallet and we agreed to give him that stuff. We were supposed to be at home before 6, but we're late. We would have some dinner together. My father tried to phone us, but we didn't answer any of his calls. I knew he would be mad. When we arrived home, he began to scold us. Here's the thing. He became calm as we gave the wallet. You must see his face! lol.. That's fun. :DD
We had our dinner at hanamasa. Tomorrow will be my sister's birthday, so we celebrated it today as my sister was around. Happy birthday sis! Yeah, it's the end of today.
Sunday, December 7th 2008. Today's such a boring day. I passed this day just as usual. It's sunny when it's day. But then.. Night came. I heard, I felt rain, coming right into my room. I would never forget about this night. She cried. I heard her crying. She cried in despair. It's like world was going to turn upside down. I listened to her crying. And I felt more than sadness, anger, worry, and others joined into one. She cried!! I almost cried because of hearing her crying.. Today's rain's more than usual. The rain sounded so sad.
"I was transferring some data from my cellphone to my computer. My cellphone was not supposed to receive message during the transferring. Having unplugged my cellphone, i heard my message tone ringing. It's her. That's kinda weird. Never did she text me first. I read the message, written that i should be on line ASAP. It made the thing became weirder. Something's wrong. I found her was on line. I called her, but suddenly, she told me that she had broken up. She then asked me to phone her. I was shocked when i heard her weeping. She's been so difficult to breathe. I was so sad. I heard her crying for about 15 minutes. It's killing me! She was crying. And what i did was nothing but sitting down, hearing her crying."
I was a useless man. And that guy... FUCK HIM!!! "I still love you, I didn't mean to hurt you and I don't change at all". Bla.. Bla.. Bla.. You and your big mouth!
Today, Jodhi's coming. After a long boring day, my friend came! Hoahh. Thanks God. lol.. We're going to have our performance in the Wesley Church, December 9th, Winfield's Christmas celebration. And he came here to practice. It's so much fun! We sang along all day, screamed like crazy in my house, disturbed my neighbor who just had their beautiful sleep. lol.. We decided to sing a song, but there's 2 songs that we liked. They are 'Angel We Have Heard on High' and 'The Christmas Song'. Which one is better? I love both! Anw, we're so nervous! It's at Tuesday and we've just practiced once. We're going to go to Jeff's house tomorrow to have another practice with his brother, Ray. I wish we won't do something shameful during our performance. Wish us luck!
Today should have been my happiest day of my life, when my exam's done, when i was going out with her. But! Knowing that that damned man made vivi crying, I can't enjoy my day! What's wrong with you?
I've never imagined that she could cry that easy. That man is damn crazy! She even did what i know she would never do to that damned guy. He didn't even give any respond to that! What happened with you?! You--are--totally--insane!! She loves you! And do you see what you've done? Sigh.. I can't make her loves me. :( You, FO!!
You have made her cry. You're SOB! Don't you realize that she loves you? I can't even make her loves me. But you? You've got it all. How dare you?! Fuck off!
Oh yeah.. I forgot about you, J***. Sorry but no sorry. Lol. I will fight for her. You've done something bad to her. it's unforgivable. Let's see who laughs the last. :DD
Here's the best! I've just passed the best day of my life! Friday, December 5th 2008, 12.27 pm. My second meeting with her! And guess what? I had a date with her! :DD Along with her friends(Vanda and Cia-Cia), of course. lol. Thanks to 'Twilight'. Because of that movie, she's going out with me. lol. That day was the best best best day of my life. As I said, it used to be hard to ask her out. But this time, i didn't know why, it's like a piece of cake. lol. What changed her mind? IDC. :DD She was so pretty, so cute, so so so! I love her! Just you all could know, i couldn't even sleep at the night before our date. That's nonsense, huh? But that's the fact. lol. I always felt like my heart could jump out from its hideout. It's really weird! I've never felt this way. I'm getting sure that i really love her.
It used to be hard to ask Vivi out. Since my first try, i'd asked her for about other 187 times. lol. i'm kidding. :DD But it's true that it's so hard to ask her. it's been months since my first try but still, she didn't want to meet me. Whoah! In the other day, I was having my walk at Sun plaza with my friends. And i knew that she was there too. that's kinda opportunity for me. :DD I then asked her to meet. But again, she refused me. i kept on asking and amazingly she wanted to at last. that really needed patience! lol. We met... just for about 5 minutes and she's gone. What kind of meeting was that? lol. i've never forgot about that 5-minutes-meeting. :DD But it's enough to make me felt happier. Hope that we could be closer each day. :)
Here is the story. As you all know, i fall in love with a girl named Vivi. Yea,she's so cute! And i'm crazy about her. Just FYI, i knew her from friendster(i love you, friendster! lol..). We're getting close when we had our first chat at msn. Then, i asked for her numbers. I started to text her and gave a call. That's so gonna make me die happy. Lol.. I love her that much that i can't stop thinking of her! :DD I then asked her out and here's the problem. Yea, she might not believe me as we knew each other from the internet. That made me really sad. What to do? Then i told her what i felt about her and here came another problem. she thought that i was joking. Yeah.. Who doesn't? We'd just known each other for about 3 months and i started to ask for a date. We'd just known each other for about 3 months without any meeting and I'd told her that i loved her. In Indonesia, that's a really nonsense thing. I tried to convince her and she believed me at last. But she said that we can't make it that way. Hoahh! That hurt. For a few next months, i still text her. Surprisingly, i knew from her friend that she's in a relationship with a guy named J***. And it's killing me! Never did i feel that hurt. She's gone. TO BE CONTINUE.. lol.
Again! I'll remake this blog. It's been months since my last visit to this blog, and I find it all in inappropriate way. Weird blog from the weird man. lol. Why did i decide to remake this blog again? Simply because of the most fantastic day i've ever had in my life! I might want to share it to the others. Or it may just be a sweet memory for me to remember later on. :DD I'll tell it at the other post. Cheer guys!
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