not knowing where to go or who to find, he ended up writing this journal.
he has the life of an ordinary person, yet the way of thinking of a melancholia.
he just doesn't know how to find that four-letter thing.
P. S. the navigator buttons are the colored bookmarks.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
So..now i am having a physic class at GO, the second god-damn place on earth after school,of course.
Eww..this is really boring.
A man is standing in front of the class, saying only-scientists-know-what-he-says words.
Kevin, who is sitting next to me, has just tried to assume what that man has just asked, yet he totally sucks!
Well, we all suck when facing physic lesson.
By the way, it's getting hot here.
For any perverts, i don't mean that i am going to be naked or there are some chicks here, okay?
I mean it's really hot here!
Whoa..
What's with that air coller? Or conditioner..or whatever you call that bloody thing.
Hehey..
I just heard the bell ringing.
Saved by the bell!
Phew..
Let's see..
The next lesson is..
What??
This lesson doesn't help either!
Urgh..
Chemistry,another boring lesson to do.
I really hope the teacher isn't boring as well..
Today, kevin go home earlier..again.
He's such a pathetic man..ever.
He always tells me,"ohh,i'm not good in physic" or "ohh,chemistry is too hard" or "math? is there something you can give better than math?".
However, what his habits here are nothing but sleeping in class, pressing handphone's buttons, or,like what i've stated above,going home earlier.
I adore him,yet pity on him.
Lol.. =D
This world is so damn crazy, huh?
Another bell has rung.
It's time for chemistry.
And the teacher is,just as expected,boring too..
Beuhh..
By the way, my friend is asking me whether or not i will join her to watch new moon.
And so that you know, i hate twilight and its sequels so much!
I guess i've ever written about the reason.
Though i've forgotten when i wrote it.
However, in spite of my hatred, i love going out with my friends.
So, what should i do?
Wewewew..
I'd better go now.
The woman in front is yelling at me now.
Ciao..Labels: GO
5:12 PM
Monday, November 16, 2009
can I keep on waiting for this couple of years?
let God do the rest..
all I can do is just to wait.
hope that I can survive these years.
7:12 AM
Friday, November 13, 2009
6:14 PM
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
6 months to go, friends, and I'll be leaving this town.
*sigh*
well, I've actually never thought about this before.
it's just.. I mean I finally realize that it's almost impossible to leave this town, specifically my friends, every single of them.
I write about this, after checking Cindy Tantarica's blog, a post, which states the thing as I do.
after taking a look or two to it, I finally realize about this leaving-my-friends thing, that I can't actually stand against.
i face the same dilemma like what Cindy is facing.
will I leave this town, sacrificing my friends, or stay while sacrificing my study?
I always wasted my time doing unnecessary, silly things without knowing that clock kept ticking and dragged away my age, my life. lots of days have been wasted. now, that I've known how expensive time has become, I can just be sorry.
I reach my clock, trying to turn back its hands, trying to earn back the time I've wasted, but I know, it's useless.
i admire kids, really admire them, when seeing them try very hard to obtain what they want.
it doesn't matter if they have to cry, or even fight to get what they are really interested in.
Otherwise, I, as a grown-up, can only muse.
It's so embarrassing, if I may say.
do I really have to abandon my old life and build the new one?
this problem is way too rough.
even a person like Cindy Tantarica has a dilemma for this.
this is very confusing, and horrible... and..
*sigh*
It's time to tell Jesus everything about this.
I believe He knows which is the best, for me, and for my friends.Labels: friends
9:23 PM
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Copied from Colours of Jepp
1. Real name : Garry Cristofel
2. Nick name : Gar, Ry, Li
3. Age : 16 to 17 y'o
4. Height : 170 cm
5. Weight : 52 kg
6. Spec or contact lens : Spec
7. Horoscope : Taurus
8. Male or Female : Male
9. Tv or games : Games
10. Primary school : Saint Joseph
11. Secondary school : Saint Thomas 1
12. Poly or JC : JC
13. University : Have to be UNPAR or ITB
14. Hair Colour : Black
15. Long or short hair : Short
16. Loud or quiet : Loud
17. Sweats or jeans : Jeans
18. Phone or camera : Phone
19. Health freak : Nuh..
20. Drink or smoke : Drink
21. Have a crush on someone? : Yup
22. Eat or drink : Both
23. Piercings : Nuh..
24. Tattoos : No
25. social or anti-social : Depend
26. First relationship : Is it necessary?
27. First bestfriend : Jeff and Jodhi
48. wealthy or happiness : Both
49. Want to get married : Yes
50. want kids : Hu uh..
51. Careers in my mind : Businessman, Architect, Graphic Designer
52. fight before : Yes
53. most regret of : Leaving my old life
54. Talented in : Drawing
55. Weak in ? : Physic
56. Romantic or spontaneous ? : Depend
57. Lip or eyes ? : Lip
58. Nice stomach or nice arms ? : Neither
59. Shorter or Taller ? : Taller
60. Protective or Caring : Caring
61. Hook-up or Relationships : Relationships
62. Troublemaker or hesitant : Again, depend
63. Lost glasses or contacts : Nuh..
64. Ran away from home : No
65. Held a gun/knife for self defense : No no
66. Killed somebody : Absolutely no
67. Broken someone's heart : Maybe
68. Been arrested : No
69. Cried when someone died : Yes
70. Missed someone a lot : No doubt
71. Believe in Yourself : Yes yes
72. Believe in Miracles : Faith is number 1
73. Love at first sight : Yup
74. Heaven or Hell : Heaven since Medan is like hell
75. Santa Claus : Hope he's real
76. Cartoon or anime : Anime
77. Tooth Fairy : No
78. Kiss in the first date : Hell no
79. Afraid of death : Of course
80. Handsome or cute : Who cares?
81. Pretty or cute : Pretty? Cute then
82. Reality or dream : Both
83. Is there a person you want to be with now ? : Yes yes
84. Are you seriously happy with what you're in life now ? : 50%
85. Do you believe in fate ? : 50%
86. Do you believe in everlasting love ? : I want to believe
87. Do you believe in god ? : 1000% out of 10%
88. How often do you lie ? : Frequently?
89. Do you respect elders ? : Sure
90. Are you a good kid ? : Who will believe?
91. Do you like your family ? : Yes
92. Do you like your friends ? : Yes
93. Are you greedy ? : Depend
94. What do you want now ? : fast internet connection!
95. What will you wish for ? : other 1000 wishes
96. A truth to first person ? : No idea
97. A truth to second person ? : .....
98. A truth to third person ? : .....
99. Do you even trust yourself ? : Hell yeah
100. post as 100th truth tag 10 person : Now, that is the endLabels: about me
7:31 PM
Monday, November 9, 2009
the feeling to be hated is more horrible than the body stormed by thousands of needles.
*sigh*.
you have to go on, garry.
you have to..
No one will understand this feeling but you, yourself.Labels: about me
9:49 PM
Sunday, November 8, 2009
just so you all know, I've been sitting on my chair and facing my HP notebook since 10 in the morning.
and right now, the clock shows me that the day is going to turn to night soon, 5.30 PM.
what is weird is that I've never been like this before.
internet addicted? that is so not me.
then, what catches my attention so much?
Well, the fact is that I've been reading an interesting blog which will totally amuse everyone who reads it.
trust me.
I can't give specific description about the blog, you should look it by yourself.
open it and enjoy each fascinating story you've never known before.
I've realized.. that world is not as boring as it seems.
here is the link :
Blog misteri enigma
Labels: cool one
5:15 PM
Saturday, November 7, 2009
the internet connection really sucks!
now that I feel it.
hoah..
it seems to be so boring now to blog.
well, i used to have so many activities here.
chatting, blogging, having fun, doing silly things, and so on.
however, since i pulled myself out from this public, and at last decided to blog again, I'm feeling so lonely now.
my friends may assume that i'm not blogging anymore.
*sigh*
what to do? what to do?
I really miss them. :(
I shouldn't have trusted my life to someone else.
what i am feeling now is just total emptiness.
I just write and write, hoping someone to read and give comments to it, yet no one will actually do.
is this the life I really want?
well, actually i don't have any interest in blogging anymore.
I've been out of this thing for too long.
time has killed the feeling.
what I write here is now totally bullshits and nonsense things.
unimportant, nothing about life, just about my complaints against the life.
I am DEAD here if I may say.. totally dead!Labels: unnecessary things
1:57 PM
Friday, November 6, 2009
If there is someone I have to kill now, then it will be my English teacher!Labels: school
10:40 PM
the people you chase, you can't have. the people who chase you, you don't want.Labels: quote
10:29 PM
ahhh..
another chance to update my blog.
:D
heyy..
good news, I've set an internet connection at home, which means another 24 hours of online-ing a day..
lol..
ahh..
finally, the right internet connection.
well, that's the good news.
the bad news is, it is totally slow!!!!!
"selambat siput"
lol.. :D
I can sh*t for some time while waiting it connect me to the facebook.
:DD
it really sucks, yet i love having it.
lol.
well, at least i can connect to the internet, everyday.
hehe..
then it means that i'll bring my dead blog to life again. :))
it's time to update my blog daily like i used to do.
well,first before first, what should i say now?
i should say that my life has been ruined.
yahh..
long time after my last update, my life has turned even more pathetic.
too pathetic to even try to find a death hole and jump into it to kill myself.
by the way, i have been thinking, should I look for my old friends again, whom i know from this blog?
it has been a while since my existence didn't exist here.
i doubt they will remember me.
however, i miss them. (well, some of them do lots of silly things which i love so much. lol..)
maybe no, for some time.
there will be time to do so..
that's enough for today. let's see what will happen tomorrow.
ciao..
9:45 PM
Saturday, November 28, 2009
So..now i am having a physic class at GO, the second god-damn place on earth after school,of course.
Eww..this is really boring.
A man is standing in front of the class, saying only-scientists-know-what-he-says words.
Kevin, who is sitting next to me, has just tried to assume what that man has just asked, yet he totally sucks!
Well, we all suck when facing physic lesson.
By the way, it's getting hot here.
For any perverts, i don't mean that i am going to be naked or there are some chicks here, okay?
I mean it's really hot here!
Whoa..
What's with that air coller? Or conditioner..or whatever you call that bloody thing.
Hehey..
I just heard the bell ringing.
Saved by the bell!
Phew..
Let's see..
The next lesson is..
What??
This lesson doesn't help either!
Urgh..
Chemistry,another boring lesson to do.
I really hope the teacher isn't boring as well..
Today, kevin go home earlier..again.
He's such a pathetic man..ever.
He always tells me,"ohh,i'm not good in physic" or "ohh,chemistry is too hard" or "math? is there something you can give better than math?".
However, what his habits here are nothing but sleeping in class, pressing handphone's buttons, or,like what i've stated above,going home earlier.
I adore him,yet pity on him.
Lol.. =D
This world is so damn crazy, huh?
Another bell has rung.
It's time for chemistry.
And the teacher is,just as expected,boring too..
Beuhh..
By the way, my friend is asking me whether or not i will join her to watch new moon.
And so that you know, i hate twilight and its sequels so much!
I guess i've ever written about the reason.
Though i've forgotten when i wrote it.
However, in spite of my hatred, i love going out with my friends.
So, what should i do?
Wewewew..
I'd better go now.
The woman in front is yelling at me now.
Ciao..Labels: GO
5:12 PM
Monday, November 16, 2009
can I keep on waiting for this couple of years?
let God do the rest..
all I can do is just to wait.
hope that I can survive these years.
7:12 AM
Friday, November 13, 2009
6:14 PM
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
6 months to go, friends, and I'll be leaving this town.
*sigh*
well, I've actually never thought about this before.
it's just.. I mean I finally realize that it's almost impossible to leave this town, specifically my friends, every single of them.
I write about this, after checking Cindy Tantarica's blog, a post, which states the thing as I do.
after taking a look or two to it, I finally realize about this leaving-my-friends thing, that I can't actually stand against.
i face the same dilemma like what Cindy is facing.
will I leave this town, sacrificing my friends, or stay while sacrificing my study?
I always wasted my time doing unnecessary, silly things without knowing that clock kept ticking and dragged away my age, my life. lots of days have been wasted. now, that I've known how expensive time has become, I can just be sorry.
I reach my clock, trying to turn back its hands, trying to earn back the time I've wasted, but I know, it's useless.
i admire kids, really admire them, when seeing them try very hard to obtain what they want.
it doesn't matter if they have to cry, or even fight to get what they are really interested in.
Otherwise, I, as a grown-up, can only muse.
It's so embarrassing, if I may say.
do I really have to abandon my old life and build the new one?
this problem is way too rough.
even a person like Cindy Tantarica has a dilemma for this.
this is very confusing, and horrible... and..
*sigh*
It's time to tell Jesus everything about this.
I believe He knows which is the best, for me, and for my friends.Labels: friends
9:23 PM
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Copied from Colours of Jepp
1. Real name : Garry Cristofel
2. Nick name : Gar, Ry, Li
3. Age : 16 to 17 y'o
4. Height : 170 cm
5. Weight : 52 kg
6. Spec or contact lens : Spec
7. Horoscope : Taurus
8. Male or Female : Male
9. Tv or games : Games
10. Primary school : Saint Joseph
11. Secondary school : Saint Thomas 1
12. Poly or JC : JC
13. University : Have to be UNPAR or ITB
14. Hair Colour : Black
15. Long or short hair : Short
16. Loud or quiet : Loud
17. Sweats or jeans : Jeans
18. Phone or camera : Phone
19. Health freak : Nuh..
20. Drink or smoke : Drink
21. Have a crush on someone? : Yup
22. Eat or drink : Both
23. Piercings : Nuh..
24. Tattoos : No
25. social or anti-social : Depend
26. First relationship : Is it necessary?
27. First bestfriend : Jeff and Jodhi
48. wealthy or happiness : Both
49. Want to get married : Yes
50. want kids : Hu uh..
51. Careers in my mind : Businessman, Architect, Graphic Designer
52. fight before : Yes
53. most regret of : Leaving my old life
54. Talented in : Drawing
55. Weak in ? : Physic
56. Romantic or spontaneous ? : Depend
57. Lip or eyes ? : Lip
58. Nice stomach or nice arms ? : Neither
59. Shorter or Taller ? : Taller
60. Protective or Caring : Caring
61. Hook-up or Relationships : Relationships
62. Troublemaker or hesitant : Again, depend
63. Lost glasses or contacts : Nuh..
64. Ran away from home : No
65. Held a gun/knife for self defense : No no
66. Killed somebody : Absolutely no
67. Broken someone's heart : Maybe
68. Been arrested : No
69. Cried when someone died : Yes
70. Missed someone a lot : No doubt
71. Believe in Yourself : Yes yes
72. Believe in Miracles : Faith is number 1
73. Love at first sight : Yup
74. Heaven or Hell : Heaven since Medan is like hell
75. Santa Claus : Hope he's real
76. Cartoon or anime : Anime
77. Tooth Fairy : No
78. Kiss in the first date : Hell no
79. Afraid of death : Of course
80. Handsome or cute : Who cares?
81. Pretty or cute : Pretty? Cute then
82. Reality or dream : Both
83. Is there a person you want to be with now ? : Yes yes
84. Are you seriously happy with what you're in life now ? : 50%
85. Do you believe in fate ? : 50%
86. Do you believe in everlasting love ? : I want to believe
87. Do you believe in god ? : 1000% out of 10%
88. How often do you lie ? : Frequently?
89. Do you respect elders ? : Sure
90. Are you a good kid ? : Who will believe?
91. Do you like your family ? : Yes
92. Do you like your friends ? : Yes
93. Are you greedy ? : Depend
94. What do you want now ? : fast internet connection!
95. What will you wish for ? : other 1000 wishes
96. A truth to first person ? : No idea
97. A truth to second person ? : .....
98. A truth to third person ? : .....
99. Do you even trust yourself ? : Hell yeah
100. post as 100th truth tag 10 person : Now, that is the endLabels: about me
7:31 PM
Monday, November 9, 2009
the feeling to be hated is more horrible than the body stormed by thousands of needles.
*sigh*.
you have to go on, garry.
you have to..
No one will understand this feeling but you, yourself.Labels: about me
9:49 PM
Sunday, November 8, 2009
just so you all know, I've been sitting on my chair and facing my HP notebook since 10 in the morning.
and right now, the clock shows me that the day is going to turn to night soon, 5.30 PM.
what is weird is that I've never been like this before.
internet addicted? that is so not me.
then, what catches my attention so much?
Well, the fact is that I've been reading an interesting blog which will totally amuse everyone who reads it.
trust me.
I can't give specific description about the blog, you should look it by yourself.
open it and enjoy each fascinating story you've never known before.
I've realized.. that world is not as boring as it seems.
here is the link :
Blog misteri enigma
Labels: cool one
5:15 PM
Saturday, November 7, 2009
the internet connection really sucks!
now that I feel it.
hoah..
it seems to be so boring now to blog.
well, i used to have so many activities here.
chatting, blogging, having fun, doing silly things, and so on.
however, since i pulled myself out from this public, and at last decided to blog again, I'm feeling so lonely now.
my friends may assume that i'm not blogging anymore.
*sigh*
what to do? what to do?
I really miss them. :(
I shouldn't have trusted my life to someone else.
what i am feeling now is just total emptiness.
I just write and write, hoping someone to read and give comments to it, yet no one will actually do.
is this the life I really want?
well, actually i don't have any interest in blogging anymore.
I've been out of this thing for too long.
time has killed the feeling.
what I write here is now totally bullshits and nonsense things.
unimportant, nothing about life, just about my complaints against the life.
I am DEAD here if I may say.. totally dead!Labels: unnecessary things
1:57 PM
Friday, November 6, 2009
If there is someone I have to kill now, then it will be my English teacher!Labels: school
10:40 PM
the people you chase, you can't have. the people who chase you, you don't want.Labels: quote
10:29 PM
ahhh..
another chance to update my blog.
:D
heyy..
good news, I've set an internet connection at home, which means another 24 hours of online-ing a day..
lol..
ahh..
finally, the right internet connection.
well, that's the good news.
the bad news is, it is totally slow!!!!!
"selambat siput"
lol.. :D
I can sh*t for some time while waiting it connect me to the facebook.
:DD
it really sucks, yet i love having it.
lol.
well, at least i can connect to the internet, everyday.
hehe..
then it means that i'll bring my dead blog to life again. :))
it's time to update my blog daily like i used to do.
well,first before first, what should i say now?
i should say that my life has been ruined.
yahh..
long time after my last update, my life has turned even more pathetic.
too pathetic to even try to find a death hole and jump into it to kill myself.
by the way, i have been thinking, should I look for my old friends again, whom i know from this blog?
it has been a while since my existence didn't exist here.
i doubt they will remember me.
however, i miss them. (well, some of them do lots of silly things which i love so much. lol..)
maybe no, for some time.
there will be time to do so..
that's enough for today. let's see what will happen tomorrow.
ciao..
9:45 PM
