LIFE JOURNAL
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not knowing where to go or who to find, he ended up writing this journal.
he has the life of an ordinary person, yet the way of thinking of a melancholia.
he just doesn't know how to find that four-letter thing.
P. S. the navigator buttons are the colored bookmarks.
Monday, December 13, 2010
and hey. before i forget, i'd like to share the anime i'd been watching.
well, i don't give either the video or the download link.
sorry..
just look by yourself okay?
but i tell you, it's worth watching.
the title is "angel beats"
and i really love the songs "ichiban no takaramono" and "brave song" on that anime.
I love this song and I want to dedicate this song to Stephanie Candra.
next time, i'll be the one who sings it. :P
if you wish. lol. :D
enjoy..
(the real music actually starts at 1:18)
Another summer day Has come and gone away In Paris and Rome But I wanna go home
May be surrounded by A million people I Still feel all alone Just wanna go home Oh I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you Each one a line or two "I'm fine baby, how are you?" Well, I would send them but I know that it's just not enough My words were cold and flat And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane Another sunny place I'm lucky I know But I wanna go home I got to go home
Let me go home I'm just too far from where you are I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life It's like I just stepped outside When everything was going right And I know just why you could not Come along with me This was not your dream But you always believed in me
Another winter day has come And gone away In Eden, Paris, and Rome And I wanna go home Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by A million people I Still feel alone Let me go home Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home I've had my run Baby, I'm done I gotta go home Let me go home It'll all be alright I'll be home tonight I'm coming back home
here I am. to write another part of my life, just as usual. but today i don't bring good news. it's been a while since i had my last good things. i know no one likes bad news. i know no one cares if i got bad news. sigh. yeah, this blog is just for me, myself. so don't even bother. (no one will, yeah)
this whacking stuff i've just had give me too much pain for sure. guess what, we broke up. and hell yeah, it's miserable! it's not like i can say '*yeay* we broke up!' or 'she dumped me at last' or some of other fucking stuffs.
i really miss her and i mean it. i miss those smiles, i miss that laughter, i miss how we shared things, everything! total misery..
but what to do, she doesn't love me anymore. and that's all my fault! the consequence of the things i've done to her is this! don't you think you're fantastic garry? you made things and you can only regret now!
just 1 week to go before you leave for Bandung, and you've left bad memories here. how great you are, garry, don't you think? shit!
I still remember.. I watched this video when I first opened youtube.com.
I watched the proverbial sunrise Coming up over the Pacific and You might think I'm losing my mind But I will shy away from the specifics
Cause I don't want you to know where I am Cause then you'll see my heart In the saddest state it's ever been This is no place to try and live my life
Stop right there That's exactly where I lost it See that line Well I never should've crossed it Stop right there Well I never should've said that It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
I'm sorry for the person I became I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again Cause who I am hates who I've been Who I am hates who I've been
I talk to absolutely no one Couldn't keep to myself enough And the things bottled inside Have finally begun to create so much pressure That I'd soon blow up and
I heard the reverberating footsteps Synching up to the beating of my heart And I was positive that unless I got myself together I would watch me fall apart
And I can't let that happen again Cause then you'll see my heart In the saddest state it's ever been This is no place to try and live my life
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(Radio edit doesn't have this verse!)
Stop right there That's exactly where I lost it See that line I never should've crossed it Stop right there I never should've said that It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
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Stop right there Thats exactly where I lost it See that line Well I never should've crossed it Stop right there Well I never should've said that It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
I'm sorry for the person I became I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again Cause who I am hates who I've been Who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been And who I am will take the second chance you gave me Who I am hates who I've been Cause who I've been only ever made me
I'm sorry for the person I became So sorry that it took so long for me to change I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again Cause who I am hates who I've been Who I am hates who I've been
I'm loving this song. sweet! :) and I really love the last part of the video. :D
Down in a local bar Out on the boulevard The sound of an old guitar Is saving you from sinking It's a long way down It's a long way
Back like you never broke You tell a dirty joke He touches your leg and thinks he's getting close For now you let him just this once Just for now And just like that - it's over
Don't turn away Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Don't be afraid Keep it all inside, all inside When you fall apart Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard
In all your silver rings And all your silken things That song you softly sing - is keeping you from breaking It's a long way down It's a long way
Back here you never loved You shake the shivers off You take a drink to get your courage up Can you believe it Just this once Just for now And just like that It's over
Don't turn away Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Don't be afraid Keep it all inside, all inside When you fall apart Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard
Please hold on - it's alright Please hold on - it's alright Please hold on
Down in a local bar Out on the boulevard The sound of an old guitar is saving you
Don't turn away Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Don't be afraid Keep it all inside, all inside When you fall apart Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard
Don't turn away Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Don't be afraid Keep it all inside, all inside When you fall apart Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard
This could have been the change of my life I met the crossroad and I tried to think you know, I tried to think And this could have been the change of my life
Another story put to an end i decided to change the whole tale you know, I decided And this could have been put to an end
But..
When you're telling me you're an ice queen And when you said you won't change anything I've done too far I've done too far I've done too far to get back to that line And I should have turned right when it was the time
I've told to myself, I won't regret I believed this was the best thing I'd set Again, I always think If I didn't wrong, it'd be the best thing
But..
When you're telling me you're an ice queen And when you said you won't change anything I've done too far I've done too far I've done too far to get back to that line I should have turned right when it was the time
I'm falling apart and I always hope I hope you're the one who will piece me back but I'm mistaken, totally mistaken You're the one who tear me down You tear me down, you surely mean it
And..
When you're telling me you're an ice queen And when you said you won't change anything I've done too far I've done too far I've done too far to get back to that line I should have turned right when it was the time
When you're telling me you're an ice queen And when you said you won't change anything I've done too far I've done too far I've done too far to get back to that line I should have turned right when it was the time
I love this song and I want to dedicate this song to Stephanie Candra.
next time, i'll be the one who sings it. :P
if you wish. lol. :D
enjoy..
(the real music actually starts at 1:18)
Another summer day Has come and gone away In Paris and Rome But I wanna go home
May be surrounded by A million people I Still feel all alone Just wanna go home Oh I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you Each one a line or two "I'm fine baby, how are you?" Well, I would send them but I know that it's just not enough My words were cold and flat And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane Another sunny place I'm lucky I know But I wanna go home I got to go home
Let me go home I'm just too far from where you are I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life It's like I just stepped outside When everything was going right And I know just why you could not Come along with me This was not your dream But you always believed in me
Another winter day has come And gone away In Eden, Paris, and Rome And I wanna go home Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by A million people I Still feel alone Let me go home Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home I've had my run Baby, I'm done I gotta go home Let me go home It'll all be alright I'll be home tonight I'm coming back home
here I am. to write another part of my life, just as usual. but today i don't bring good news. it's been a while since i had my last good things. i know no one likes bad news. i know no one cares if i got bad news. sigh. yeah, this blog is just for me, myself. so don't even bother. (no one will, yeah)
this whacking stuff i've just had give me too much pain for sure. guess what, we broke up. and hell yeah, it's miserable! it's not like i can say '*yeay* we broke up!' or 'she dumped me at last' or some of other fucking stuffs.
i really miss her and i mean it. i miss those smiles, i miss that laughter, i miss how we shared things, everything! total misery..
but what to do, she doesn't love me anymore. and that's all my fault! the consequence of the things i've done to her is this! don't you think you're fantastic garry? you made things and you can only regret now!
just 1 week to go before you leave for Bandung, and you've left bad memories here. how great you are, garry, don't you think? shit!
I still remember.. I watched this video when I first opened youtube.com.
I watched the proverbial sunrise Coming up over the Pacific and You might think I'm losing my mind But I will shy away from the specifics
Cause I don't want you to know where I am Cause then you'll see my heart In the saddest state it's ever been This is no place to try and live my life
Stop right there That's exactly where I lost it See that line Well I never should've crossed it Stop right there Well I never should've said that It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
I'm sorry for the person I became I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again Cause who I am hates who I've been Who I am hates who I've been
I talk to absolutely no one Couldn't keep to myself enough And the things bottled inside Have finally begun to create so much pressure That I'd soon blow up and
I heard the reverberating footsteps Synching up to the beating of my heart And I was positive that unless I got myself together I would watch me fall apart
And I can't let that happen again Cause then you'll see my heart In the saddest state it's ever been This is no place to try and live my life
---------------------------------------------
(Radio edit doesn't have this verse!)
Stop right there That's exactly where I lost it See that line I never should've crossed it Stop right there I never should've said that It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
---------------------------------------------
Stop right there Thats exactly where I lost it See that line Well I never should've crossed it Stop right there Well I never should've said that It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
I'm sorry for the person I became I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again Cause who I am hates who I've been Who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been And who I am will take the second chance you gave me Who I am hates who I've been Cause who I've been only ever made me
I'm sorry for the person I became So sorry that it took so long for me to change I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again Cause who I am hates who I've been Who I am hates who I've been
I'm loving this song. sweet! :) and I really love the last part of the video. :D
Down in a local bar Out on the boulevard The sound of an old guitar Is saving you from sinking It's a long way down It's a long way
Back like you never broke You tell a dirty joke He touches your leg and thinks he's getting close For now you let him just this once Just for now And just like that - it's over
Don't turn away Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Don't be afraid Keep it all inside, all inside When you fall apart Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard
In all your silver rings And all your silken things That song you softly sing - is keeping you from breaking It's a long way down It's a long way
Back here you never loved You shake the shivers off You take a drink to get your courage up Can you believe it Just this once Just for now And just like that It's over
Don't turn away Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Don't be afraid Keep it all inside, all inside When you fall apart Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard
Please hold on - it's alright Please hold on - it's alright Please hold on
Down in a local bar Out on the boulevard The sound of an old guitar is saving you
Don't turn away Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Don't be afraid Keep it all inside, all inside When you fall apart Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard
Don't turn away Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Don't be afraid Keep it all inside, all inside When you fall apart Dry your eyes, dry your eyes Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard
This could have been the change of my life I met the crossroad and I tried to think you know, I tried to think And this could have been the change of my life
Another story put to an end i decided to change the whole tale you know, I decided And this could have been put to an end
But..
When you're telling me you're an ice queen And when you said you won't change anything I've done too far I've done too far I've done too far to get back to that line And I should have turned right when it was the time
I've told to myself, I won't regret I believed this was the best thing I'd set Again, I always think If I didn't wrong, it'd be the best thing
But..
When you're telling me you're an ice queen And when you said you won't change anything I've done too far I've done too far I've done too far to get back to that line I should have turned right when it was the time
I'm falling apart and I always hope I hope you're the one who will piece me back but I'm mistaken, totally mistaken You're the one who tear me down You tear me down, you surely mean it
And..
When you're telling me you're an ice queen And when you said you won't change anything I've done too far I've done too far I've done too far to get back to that line I should have turned right when it was the time
When you're telling me you're an ice queen And when you said you won't change anything I've done too far I've done too far I've done too far to get back to that line I should have turned right when it was the time
